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Man this game sucks, its seriously making me Bi-Polar....I dont know if its that I'm being too hard on myself or if I'm not being hard enough.
Ive lost A TON of money this week, with vegas, and the wcoop its been pretty friggin expensive... only today I spent about 5k ($1k wcoop, $500 second chance, like $1200 in 100r, $900 between UB tilt dise and party, and 2k I lost in a friggin HU limit game where the dude spiked two outers on the river like it was his job.). Yesterday I spent about 4k again in tourneys, its so sick I havent even cashed since the wcoop started. Ironically, the only tourney I cashed in was one of a game I really dont know, 7th in the 2nd chance O8 for like $1,200.
After today though, I'm honestly upset with myself, I literally blew up in every tourney I was in...I kinda have an excuse that I got sick half way through and litterally felt like death, but that doesn't make me feel any better about how I played. I did retarded shit all day long, I mean people *could have* folded to some of my bluffs, but should I really be depending on them? Shoving 55 on a 23KK board to a check minrasie isnt smart, limp re-raising with 78o on the button with 14 bb's is retarded, and blowing my 30k stack in the party million at the 600/1200 level with like 150 left to cash was just depressing. It seems like every sunday its the same story with me, I play like an over aggressive donkey and never accomplish shit.
As exagerated as it may sound, I honestly feel like I'm one of the 10 or 20 best NL players online when I'm playing my A game. My problem is that my A game comes along once in every four tourneys or so and it is only really consistant when I'm deep in a tourney. So basically what happens is that in 25% I'm playing great and not making many post flop mistakes (out of that 25% the cards are only cooperating like 5% of the time and thats when I get deep in the tourney), and 75% of the time Im an over aggro donk that either gives away his chips or builds a massive stack until I force myself to focus and play my A game.
Im going to take every step necissary to make sure that I put my 100% into every tourney. I don't expect NOT to make mistakes, the way I play I'm basically forced them at some point, however I do expect to think rationally before every move I make, thats my main mistake. If I can fix that leak in my game I'll have the results I've been trying to get in the Sunday tourneys.
Anyway, as I sit here watching the bubble of the FT for the WCOOP I feel depressed that someone (most likely strassa2 since he's really good) will win 440k, and its not going to be me. I can't help but think how a score like that would change me right now as a player. Oh well, I still have 2 more holdem events to go for the wcoop. I always feel like I'll have a shot in any short handed event I play and I'm looking forward to the PLH6 event in 2 or 3 days...then hopefully I can win what will most likely be a 1 million first prize on sunday :).. |
