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When I woke up this morning I was nervous about an online tournament for the first time since maybe february (when I played the 1k buy in on pokerroom without a bankroll). I was already registered into the WCOOP main event but I didnt see how big it was until it started. When I saw 1st prize was $1,160,000 I just felt like I had to win. 10k in starting chips is a deceptive stack when blinds are 25/50 and 50/100 in the first 2 levels, people play too loose and dont realize the pots get pretty big by the turn and a few bad moves can easily consume your stack. Because of the fact that people play loose I thought that I'd stay tight and not really make any moves until the ante levels...hopefully by then I'd have a 20k stack by hitting a monster in the early levels. Unfortunately, every pair I played I missed the flop, every time I raised 10's 8's or 9s the flop would come KQJ and I'd get c/r'd. At the end of the 2nd hour I think, I got tired of getting raised and made a bad play, I raised TT pf and got called by the big stack who had limped, flop came 9c8x5c limper checked I bet 500 of my 7k stack and I got c/r'd to 2k I called for some reason and folded when I got put all in on the turn. Long story short, I was playing pretty poorly out of frustration, and I finally got QQ as a shortstack with 2400 and obviously ran into AA to my surprise the flop came QTT and I doubled up. After that second life I started playing my best and got up to about 10k at the 150/300 25 level, not great but not all that bad 1 double up was all I neede to be able to take over the 200/400 level. I had 9k in the sb at a table that was limping way too much, 3 or 4 people limp 300.. CO, with like 24k or so raises to 1500 and I shove in with QQ.. CO of course instacalls with AA for fucks sake. 2 big hands all tourney both run into the nuts. After that I played the 1k second chance and the 200r, and busted on both.
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With the end of the wcoop, and the lack of any strong cashes (I was 24 away from a 95k cash in the PLO event ) this puts an end to september and a start to what hopefully is a better month. My bankroll has been hurting since the Wcoop started, and prior to that I really haven't been smart at all with money management. This game has completely desensitzed me from the value of money, I honestly dont care about it and thats not a good thing in many ways ---One can argue that the disrespect for money is what makes great players great, but there are a lot of negatives to this--- I dont know but I think if I add up all the money I spent on needless cab rides, expensive meals and tipping alone during my month in vegas it would be in the thousands. I went to Europe which is fine, but I spent a ton drinking and buying dumb shit... other than that I've also been irresponsible when it comes to gambling, playing craps, playing $500 sit n gos to "kill time" before I go out, buying into the 10k ME (I still dont regret this decision but that doesnt mean it wasn't careless)...All in all its been an expensive past few months, just this week alone I lost like $15k playing all the tourneys and what not.
I decided to fix everything that I see as "negative" in my life, from the biggest things to the smallest details (like keeping my room clean and my workspace cleared ). Here's a list of things that I am going to make an effort to do in order to have a more positive life overall:
1.- Keep strict records - I'm going to create an excel sheet and just keep exact records of every session and every tourney, thepokerdb.com really helps too, so I'll combine all of my info and make sure that I am on track and aware of what my BR is at at all times.
2.- Change my diet- Back in High School I was really skinny and one day I decided to change my diet and eat REALLY healthy and it seriously changed me completely during that year, once I went back to old habits I became lazy again and didnt continue. I think a healthy diet can make a huge difference in concentration/mood when I play poker.
3.- Going to the gym- tomorrow or the day after I'm signing up at a gym, again the healthy lifestyle is key and believe it or not, good physical condition is key in long tourneys, particularly live events. I also need something to channel my negative energy from bad beats and what not.
4.- 1 day a week, I WILL NOT PLAY POKER, my social life has gone to shit since I started playing, poker consumes all my time and energy and its getting bad. I really need to go out and relax at least one day a week, get my mind off poker and come back ready to work the next day.
5.- get a hobby. I'm thinking golf, never been a real fan of it but now that I play poker I think they go hand in hand, its a good place to clear my mind and relax. Hopefully when I get back in shape I can also start playing soccer again if all of my injuries are gone from back in the day.
Those are the 5 main things for me at the moment, I'm also gonna do shit like try not to eat while I'm playing, take breaks, not play when Im not in the mood, put 100% effort into every session, not play expensive "for fun" shit like $200 sit n gos so my friends can watch or $200 NL "shove in every hand" sessions when I'm drunk...My goal is to make anywhere between $100 and $200K by the end of January, lets see how I do.
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Finally I want to say FUCK YOU Senator Bill Frist and the rest of the fucks trying to get online poker banned and succeeding at it. It's mostly the conservative shits that piss on everything that's good about this country and it's getting fucking old. For the love of God, It's the fucking internet leave us the fuck alone, there's a billion other things that should be taken care of before you take away the right that millions of Americans _should_ have to play a fucking game. Why is it that every other country seems to have an open mind about this subject but the U.S. wont let it go? Millions of people cant wait to get the hell out of work, eat and play some $10 tournament or a $20 buy in cash game. Hell, my mom has a blast playing freerolls and $1 tourneys. Let us enjoy a game that is far more mentally challenging than other games of intellegence that hold more "prestige" like chess, the only reason narrow-minded douchebags frown upon poker is because it invovels money, which is ridiculous.
That was my rant. I hate people that rant and whine about shit but never have a solution, unfortunately I can't come up with one. If however, someone decides to make a rally, or a march in protest to this law being passed I will do my very best to support and attend. This is something that actually affects me and my future and I do not want to see all of the hard work I put into this go to waste just like that. This thing is already starting to escalate and people are starting to panick, it can literally snowball into something that will ruin the lives of a lot of pro players. Without online poker the amount of new players will drop rapidly, no online sites = no online sattelites = no more big fields = no more incredible prizepools = no interest in televising it = no endorsments of any kind. You get the point. I really dont want to go back to school, I dont want to get a job, I found what I love and what I'm best at and I dont want to let it go...this could suck veeery much.
Its 7 am here and I need to get some sleep... sorry if my spelling sucked I'm seeing double right now. |
